It's never the same anymore.

Monday, October 31, 2005

HAPPY HALLOWEEN

hmmmm. tis morn went to sch to take chi paper.. hahas.. wad shld i sae? paper one was not bad.. hahas.. i can write and i have confidence ((;.. paper two.. hmmmm.. hahas.. tis wan arhs.. out of 5 words i onli noe how to write 1 word.. zzz.. shit lors.. hahas.. but suan le bahs.. lyk wad others wld sae.. over le.. hahas.. take oso take le.. suan le! .. but i tink got confident can get at least a B bahs..

after paper we went LP kaffacha eat lunch..lols.. was hungry.. hahas.. then me may kmt kris went there tok cock eat lunch. hahas.. tok alot of tings lahs.. then damn furnie lors.. hahas. then went toilet.. wao.. got 4 ppl standing at the dunno whr.. hahas.. then lyk so fierce lors.. hao xiang zai quarrel wor.. hmmmm.. scary.. hhs.. then after toilet.. kmt and may wanna pay majong.. but then cannt mahs. cos i meeting CHOO WEE KIAN go studee.. hahas.. then i gtg.. but then arhs.. they al tuo v long.. hahas.. then i was v late.. hahas.. hmmm.. cos he finished lesson at 3 todae.. cos teacher didn come -.- .. then he waited for 2 hours.. sorry wor! we went under void deck call kaki to play majong.. hahas.. all cannt -.- then cerise hp didn on. hahas.. then finalli they ended up didn play.. -.- .. damn bo liao de shi is.. may le called me! hahas.. and i'm jus beside her lors.. hahas.. she got free out going cal i got free in coming. hahas.. so jus nice.. wahahahas.. then we tok awhile lors -.- hahas. so furnie.. she ask me wanna play majong mahs.. then i tel her cannt lahs.. meeting fren study lahs.. hahahahs .. darn cute ((:

then i go home bathe and prepare everything le.. then realise pearlyn having fever.. then nobodi at home. onli kristal.. then kristal going chalet ltr.. zz.. then juliet jie brought pearlyn next dooe fes bahs.. xie le ((: .. then took a cab down.. hahas.. i mux b crazy rite?! hahas. 20 bucks gone case.. hahas.. zzz.. hmm.. then met him le.. went library studee.. hahas.. darn quiet.. almost fell aslp.. haha. eh.. i tel u al tml lah.. damn tired..

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!

Sunday, October 30, 2005

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HAPPY BIRTHDAE BI ZHU!

life is getting more and more irritating.. i was damn disappointed wit myself.. haiis.. tings jus won't go my way. i didn noe y.. CHOO WEE KIAN y didn u scold me todae? hahas.. u shld.. i'm realli out of my senses.. but.. thanks anyway ((: can't b hopeless.. but hopeful ((: isn't tt wad i sae to u? hahas.. thanks arhs.. i told myself i gotta shut it all up after a bath.. hmm.. after tt i'm stil disturbed by tt tots.. yeah.. and i tok to ze0rlc about it..

he called me and tok to me.. ((: thanks oso.. hee.. i felt much better after tt.. xie xie le.. ((: .. i'm kinda happy when he tok to me.. cos he's finalli talking to me ((: .. hmmm sorry for using up al ur energy =x hahas.. thanks for the good luck wish too ((: hee...

eugene tok to me todae.. ((: after so long? hee.. life is stil the same for him i tink. hahas.. work play slp.. hahas ((: life is almost the same for me as well.. hmmm.. tml chi paper le.. jia you wor.. ((: ..

LEWIS WASH HANDS WITH HIS SHH SHH TO SAve wATER! hhaas.. joke of the dae ((: .. he ask me not to tell ppl =x but i didn tell lors.. i scream .. lalalals~ hohohoho.. tml i meeting CHOO WEE KIAN study.. ahahas. i'll make sure he make sure me to study.. hhaas.. gdnites peeps..

Saturday, October 29, 2005

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yst went to escape. and it's total fun.. hahas ((: .. pirate ship was furnie.. hahas.. ping may with her tai pose.. hahas.. me and kmt was luffing lyk mad.. hahas.. alrite.. hmmm.. flipper was fun too.. hahas.. was suppose to sing sch song.. but then.. ah min and ping may so far away.. hahas.. then we didn lors.. beside us is tis 2 guys.. -.- they was lyk screaming 'jui ming arh!' .. then me and mt was there screaming.. ' qu si bahs' hahas.. so furnie lors.. lalalalas..

then every whr we go.. we'll c huizhen.. hahas.. so furnie lrs.. she was acting as ghost lahs.. walking every whr.. hhas.. was damn scary lors.. hahas.. but then contradicting part was tt she's wearing converse shoe -.- lol.. tt's weird alrite.. hahas.. then at fes we keep disturbing her.. hmm.. i tink she oso nan zhuo ren bahs.. cos the supervisor there.. hahas.. hmmm.. then we went to the haunted hse.. hahas.. diongs. it was damn.. scary =x.. hhaas.. actualli i wasn't so scare at fes lors.. hahas.. i was jus there keep screaming -.- i saw wad i scream once.. hahas. so furnie.. hahas.. iw as the fes alrite.. then i peep peep then i walk.. hahas.. then shit.. i didn noe the jail inside got ppl.. hahas.. slap him arhs.. bluff me.. hahas.. then walk wlak walk.. finalli come out le.. hahas.. then after tt we went to play alfa 8 i tink.. hahas.. ping may teeth so cute! =x

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then we went for fortune telling.. hahas.. the chi de.. palm reading.. hahas.. tt guy sae i v open minded.. fang bu kai.. v rich.. money wil jus come in blah blah blah. then sae if i take care of my health.. i can live v long.. woo.. but then arhs.. i might not get marry.. slap him arhs.. argh` i wanna get marry lors.. i wan hae babies.. hahas.. hurhur.. *sobx.. hahas.. alrite.. then at nites go home.. tok to choo wee kian on fone til 3 plus lors.. hahas.. then after i go bathe.. then i go slp le.. hahas.. *yawns..

Friday, October 28, 2005

MORNING

MORNING EVERYONE! wahahahas =x .. it's so earli lors.. hee.. can sae didn slp de whole nite lahs..-.- jus can't get to slp.. then watch vcd.. wahahas.. i finish the whole ting in jus one night.. wahahahas.. happy ending lors.. hahas.. they luff i luff.. they cry i cry.. hahas.. they hug i oso wan lors.. hahas.. I HUG MY PILLOW! then they kiss.. eh.. hahas. i wan can make sound effect.. -.- alrite.. *envy.. hahas.. argh~ it's jus a show.. hahas.. lalalalas~ alrite.. ppl might b preparing to go to sch nw.. hee.. my sis is.. hahas.. alrite.. i going to bed oso le.. boohoo..nites~

REUBEN SUCK! =x

Wednesday, October 26, 2005

your neighbour boasts about how well their son is doing in school and now ur parents want u to b just as successful as thast nerdy next door.

from entering pri sch to graduating frm U, ur every move is shaped and ur path already drawn out for u, b4 u can make any decisions of ur own.

in a society whr competition is tough, whr the decision making lies not in urself but wit ur parents, it is not uncommon for some youth to bcome disillusioned and yearn to find meaning in life.

during the early teenage yrs, most teenagers seek personal development as they have big dreams and plans for themselves. they begin to tink about their personal values and the directions they want to pursue in life. however, they are inevitably caught up in the paper chase, thus leaving them lill time to pause their dreams and are sometimes caught in an identity crisis.

when this hapens, these young people tend to look to famous, beautiful wealthy or popular personalities as role models or symbols of success. there is thus a misguided notion that one has to own the latest fashion or gadget to b famous or popular.

take a walk down orchard road and you can c y the hunger for material goods smacks u right in the face- every 10 steps u take, u are greeted by billboards hawking expensive apparel, from nike shoes to quicksilver wear on hunky male ans gorgeous female models. add to that the celebrities who make occasional headlines with their latest hairdos or new car, and you can see wad msg are being sent out.

in the teenage yrs whr the 'cool' ones stand out, it is no wonder y some choose to model themselves after these celebrities so as to b popular among frens.

one ger in her late teens was horrified when her mother transformed her well conditioned jeans, complete with frays at the bottom and a tear near the knee area, into a pair of bermudas. she described her pair of jeans as a 'unique version' and reckoned that being different was simply quite cool.

then there are the rich frens who 'wow' you with the latest expensive hand phone by demonstrating its various functions and how advanced it is. it is natural for a teenager to feel envy at their fren's new acquisition, making him'her feel inferior and spurring him/her on to want to own the latest too. then when u decide tt ur old phone looks jus fine, frens snigger and make snide remarks. tis is no diff from how peer influence causes oone to err..

as we live in a society that has bcome affluent over time, such material comforts are affordable but does a branded product realli live up to its name? some argue tt owning the latest products is a temporary satisfaction and will wear off once it fails to fascinate others or when a newer version hits the market.
in an online forum, respondents feel tt brand names are usualli associated with image and quality, and would make the consumer feel good owning the product.

the general public is led to tink that a branded product is popular. however, the truth is tt a product is popular bcox of the amt of money spent to market ro advertise the product as well as to rope in popular celebrities to plug it.

wad happens if someone cannt afford these ex gds? in the worse case scenario, theft bcmes the ans to the prob. just lyk a recent case whr a ger, despo to win back her ex-bf, used a stolen credit card no. to buy flowers as a present for him.

a less despo method is adopted by a no. of students - working part- time while studying. acc to statistic from the Ministry of Manpower, there were about 6300 students who worked and studied last yr, a significant increase in no. frm 2001 to 2003.

some do it for pocket money and yet others to support their family. however, there are some students who work for other reasons such as to pay for the latest hand phone model or brand-name clothes and shoes.

is it worth it to spend so much time working jus to satisfy material needs? while working to pay for ur own bills and material needs demostrates independence, it may also mean having less time to concentrate on more impt priorities , lyk studying and preparing for exam.

there are oso other areas of life to b aware of . such as building relationships with ur family and frens , and enjoying life through sprts and learning nwe skills.

after all, life is not about wad possessions you have, but rather the experiences that you live, and ur contact with people, each wit a unique story to share.

you can almost nv find solace in material goods but can seek advice and comfort frm frens and family members. so treasure these ppl who help to mould ur character, and not the tings that will onli enhance the outward appearance. remeber that physical looks lose their shine over time. however, intangible assets such as positive chraracter traits remain wit you and strengthen as u grow.

you may b surprised to know, but there are individuals who have found their identity and whr they are heading do not care to b driven by such material needs. they keep their lives in check b being focused on wad they realli want in life and aim towards wad they hope to achieve. for tis grp of ppl, realism prevails over materialism.

onli if u are excessively preoccupied with acquring materal tings will it becme an area of concern, esp if u are selling ur soul or even resorting to law- breaking methods in exchange for such possessions.

material possessions can b wiped out in one dae but they can b re purcharsed, just as money lose can b earned again. however, family ties and memories cannt b bought as easily once they are lost. you do not want to live in a dream and live a life of regret.

so while u are working to earn money to buy the watch u haven been eyeing for a long time, do not forgt that there are other issurs lyk family and frens relationships that need time and attention to nurture. and perhaps. tou may want to pay ur nerdy neighbour a bisit to ask him for tips on how to score your way through the exams!

Tuesday, October 25, 2005

ART!

ART TOPIC IS OUT! ARGH~ .. dunno wanna do wad.. haiis.. kinda difficult when i c it.. ((: ... alrite.. gonna study ((: jia you peeps!

Birthdae Ivan ((:

HAPPY BIRTHDAE IVAN! ((: i'll meet u in dreamland at 3! and we'll go to van van's restaurant for my 90% steak n ice tea! hahas.. cya there! ((:

todae went out wit cerise..ade..wei hong..poh chuan ((: .. hahas.. met ade fes. haha.. then cerise they al came.. ((: .. hahas.. went town bahs. wahahahas =x.. then went far east.. hahas.. poh chuan wanna buy shorts.. hahas.. so went there c c. then after tt went take neoprint.. argh~ i knew smth.. hahahas.. can't sae.. ltr poh chuan box me =x

alrite.. then went to eat mahs.. hahas. then went to cine for movie.. hahas.. was deciding if to watch the wig or nt.. cos weihong and poh chuan haven 16 -.- hahas.. but then stil went to buy le.. hahas.. try our luck bahs. hahas.. and tt ger realli didn check. hahas ((: then they passed! hee.. went in. i bought popcorn.. then there was one part i got shocked!! then there's pop corn flying arnd -.- hahas.. so paiseh lors.. argh! then ade was luffing lyk mad -.- ... alrite tt's one of the furnie things tt happened to me inside the cinema.. hahas. second was.. i was drinking water frm my bottle..then i was sucking mahs =x. then i finish liao there's tis kissing sound.. argh! damn paiseh! hahas.. then ade was luffing damn hard oso.. zzz.. slap her! *piak! .. the third wan is i scream! argh!!!! onli i scream lors.. whole cinema so many ppl onli me! -.- ... ade lahs! i was suppose to scare her instead i scare myself.. lols..

ade and me inside the cinema v cartoon arh.. hahas.. she scared she keep pressing my fats -.- =x then i take her head cover my eyes.. hahas.. so furnie =x but then fun! hahas.. todae me and ade theme is . to find a yandaoz guy .. but then the cateria is he mux wear spec.. hahas =x. damn difficult lors.. saw al those wear specs de all uncle -.- arbo is buai kua.. hahas.. bth.. i c liao i pengs lors.. ade was there .. zzz.. hahas..

tml need go sch at 930 take art qn paper.. hmm.. was wondering wad was the theme for tis yr.. hopefully it'll b easy ((: .. hmm.. alrite.. i'm ending here ((: gdnites peeps ((:

Monday, October 24, 2005

KYM IS BACK! ((: .. finalli she's back.. hahas.. i missed her so much.. hee.. and she's in one piece! hee.. safe and sound (:

rather heavy now.. wad the hell rite? isn't my fault? isn't my huever.. y m i feeling tis way.. hahas..i'm weird.. hahas.. hmmm.. alrite.. yst tok to junhao le.. at fes his reply was al those sibeisians kind.. i dun wanna reply de.. but then c him lyk sad sad then i told him alot of kinda rubbish.. cosi'm guessing the situation.. then he told me his prob.. hmmmm... nw that u've made ur decision.. go on happily.. no need so confuse le bahs. wadever others sae is jus for the seek of saying. cos the final decision is stil urs ((: jia you! hee..

hmmm..O's is coming.. next monday will b chi paper.. izit good or izzit bad? haiis.. wo bu zhi dao wor.. jus studee hard for the last one mth and everything wil b alrite after tt ((: .. the time after exam wil all b mine ((:

i control my own fate.. i control my own life! ((:

Saturday, October 22, 2005

Ex-GREENVIEWANS!

I've graduated! ((: but i'll surely miss u guys! ((:

EX -GREENVIEWANS!

O LEVEL CHINESE HERE WE COME~

CLASS 4E2! YEAR 2005! WE'VE GRADUATED! WE ROCKS AS A CLASS!

THANKS TO ALL THE TEACHERS! ((: wahahahas

LOVE U PEEPS! NOT GONNA FORGT ALL OF U! U'VE ALL ADdED COLOURS TO MY LIFE! ((:

Monday, October 17, 2005

this morning ze0rlc they al leave for genting le.. hahas.. msg them in the morn wishing them good luck and stuff then pom go back slp..lols.. then kmt msg me sae todae not goin sch onli go for art. hahas.. then i worse lors.. i slp til 9 plus then wake up.. hahas.. then i prepare ao everything go sch le.. hahas.. todae is dooms dae.. wahhahas.. todae went back for art.. wao! finally finish my art! phew.. one down another 6 to go.. hee.. i'm so happy todae.. jus so happy.. ((: .. todae while doing art CHOO WEE KIAN msg me .. wahahahs.. u realli make me smile while i'm kinda confuse .. hahas.. cos i was tinking how to arrange my stuff.. hahas.. thanks u!. todae is realli a polar bear dae for me.. wahahahs...

todae after art me.annette.joyce wong. kmt.. went lp mac.. AGAIN! hahas.. hmm.. then arhs..lols.. we got tis survey thingy lahs.. we need to write smth about the service of mac.. hahas.. then we wrote til diongs.. hahas.. sae tis is the onli mac that give ppl the feeling of jurong bird park -.- hahas.. love, the 4 bird lovers -.- ..lols.. we're luffing al de way lors.. wahahahas! then on the way to the bus stop annette was singing.. then suddenli she scream.. hahas.. her bus come liao -.- suddenli lors.. scare me.. hahas.. then byebye liao me. joyce.kmt went to the other side to take bus.. hahas..

then mt come my hse.. she noe al my mi mi liao lors.. hahas.. seen de last time pic.. we luff lyk mad lors.. then saw may lee and ade and me last time de yang zi.. wahahahas.. so furnie lors.. hahas.. i c liao oso luff.. hahas.. mt luff the loudest lors.. slap her arhs.. hahas.. at least we change alrite.. hahas.. ! then i fell aslp-.- then kmt entertain herself.. hahas. then she went home herself oso.. hahas.. sorry arhs.. but then my home oso become her second home liao arhs.. hahas.. no need paiseh liao lahs.. hahas ((:...

LAST OF ALL! CHOO WEE KIAN IS THE CEO OF BEN BEN JU LE BU.. WHAHAHAS>> i"M HIS PRESIDENT.. SO.. TT MEANS.. HE'S UNDER MY COMMAND! -.- i'm lame.. hahas.. poof~

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BoO! . i'm feeling rather sick nw.. hahas.. feel lyk vomitting..hahas.. air circulation nt gud.. lol.. hmmm.. jus nw went out wit ade and cerise.. hhas.. and cerise mother and sis.. hmmm.. went bugis lahs.. hahas.. then er.. went shopping lors.. hahas.. cerise wanna buy clothes and skirt mahs.. hahas.. then she buy same skirt as me! hahas.. ((:.... then er.. i bought another jumper..lols.. wahahahas =x.. alrite lahs.. shan't tok bout al tis lahs.. not interesting.. hahas.. we help cerise make up!.. wahahahas.. not bad wad she put make up.. hhas.. her eyelash so long lors.. slap her.. hahas.. so nice dun wanna put make up.. hhaas.. then mt came to meet us go home.. hhas.. then in the train oh no.. we saw a bug on a man head then mt go tel him.. hahas.. then he mak it away then almost fly til me and i almost fell -.- hahas.. diongs..

i cried on the way home jus nw.. dunno y.. jus felt kinda heart ache lahs.. diongs.. mayb i realli haven let it go bah.. zzz. it's been so long liao.. i called reuben then i let it all out.. i cry out my heart man.. hahas.. but then not as bad as de last time i cried though (:.. thanks reuben anyway.. hee.. i'm sorry to disturb u.. u outside wit ur frens then i disturb u.. dui bu qi oh.. hee.. u're always there when i need you.. thanks.. 4 years le oh.. hahas.. hao lahs.. i treat u eat sushi.. hee.. when i have de money =x... alalalalas~

tml ze0rlc they all going genting le.. hmmm.. tml bcareful and eh.. enjoy urself there bahs ((:..i'm sure all of u al wil have a safe trip (:.. hee.. first world hotel.. wooo... enjoy arhs ((: any experience mux tel me.. wahahahs =x.. alrite lahs.. take care all! ((: come back le msg me bahs.. ((: nites peep.

Sunday, October 16, 2005

todae is erm... joshua one mth.. hahas.. he botak liao!.. hahas.. so.. er.. wahahahas.. cute ((: ..

btw.. tis few daes i'm damn sway..lols.. realli lors.. u can't believe it when u hear it.. hahas..but i'm not gonna sae.. cos it's realli haiis.. tok about it i oso wan cry.. hahas.. -.- realli damn sway... dunno y oso.. zzz.. forgt it.. i'll get my luck back ((: .. very soon!.. hee..

argh.. y reuben haven reply my mail? i've got tings to add to my last mail.. OH! i jus saw his mail!.. hahahas! oh so zhun wor.. wahahahs~ .. he online i oso dunn lors.. hahas.. nw toking to him le.. wahahhaas.. same old topic.. his nick is stil dunno hu missing tong yu.. -.- slap him lors..

jus nw went meet ade they all rnd 10 lyk tt.. hahas.. was alone walking arnd tamp.. wahahahas.. waiting for them for lyk one hour..but then it's alrite lahs.. hahas.. hmmm.. went to play pool at pavilion lors.. hahas.. oh.. saw eugene there.. hahas.. didn c him at fes.. then i turn my head.. eh.. tt wan look lyk eugene lehs.. hahas.. den i c my fone.. got miss call.. it's eugene lee.. hahas.. den i call back then he sae he saw me.. hahas.. den i look at him then he wave then hang up le..lol.. so qiao oh.. hahas.. then we saw fu wang oso lahs.. hahas.. so qiao lors.. ade jus tot of him then c le.. i jus tot of eugene then i saw him oso.. hahas.. so qiao lors.. wahahahas.. he's fren sae i dao -.- .. no mahs.. cos his fren al there tok to him lyk so weird.. hahas.. msg him ask him drinking? hahas.. he sae yah.. he forever de lors.. pool liao drink -.- stil same as last time. hahas.. hmm.. so long didn tok to him arhs.. didn go out oso le.. haiis.. kinda miss oso ((: ..

alrite.. then in the bus wao.. my tummy pain le.. diongs.. dunno eat rong ting mahs.. hahas.. then lucky lors.. i walk no ppl de route.. hahas.. shan't sae wad happen -.- .. wahahahas =x.. cerise noe =x.. lalalalas~ then i reach home lors.. THEN! i finish emptying my tummy i went back to my room i saw tis big big crockrach.. argh! hahas.. screaming lyk mad.. but then saw my mama's cute side.. wahahahas.. we're luffing lyk mad though.. cos she so furnie.. hahas.. shan't sae much too.. hee..

ze0rlc say: put my name lors.. hahas.. ((:

ze0rlc

Wednesday, October 12, 2005

studying makes me mad

i have a feeling of stupidness inside me now.. i'm feeling rather sad.. haiis.. while doing my maths i've got alot of difficulties.. i tried to solve but i don't know why my brain ain't working. argh! stupid brain of mine. useless me. hurhur. o's is reaching so soon and i'm still here sturggling like mad.. how can this be? i don't want bad grades. i know i can do it but it's no use saying but nothing is done. haiis.. mixed emotions now.. zzz.. what the hell.. feel lyk shouting it all out! ARGH!!!!! had probably gone mad after a day of studying. gee

Monday, October 10, 2005

EARTHQUAKE

baby y wld u hurt me so long.. hurt me so long~ ((:

kym had leave for CIP i tink.. haiis.. suddenli feel lyk crying.. suddenli miss her so much.. haiis.. u come back mux tell me wor ((:

he replied me ((: he sae he has no reason not to reply me.. yeah.. hmmm.. he shld tink of tt earlier.. hahas.. make me so sad he oso dunno.. slap him! hahas.. alrite.. nvm. hmmm.. i saw some topid stuff.. and my heart sank.. mayb i'm over sensitive.. i realli dunno.. reuben.. i stil dunno de feeling.. realli damn confuse.. haiis.. i felt a sudden loneliness! geee.. *blow wind.. brrr..

dardie is leaving for m'sia tml again.. he sae on of his goods was gone.. then he sae he going there to settle things then come back.. rnd 1 week.. zzz.. he ask me help him wit his BL again.. haiis.. tis means tt i gotta go to de postoffice again.. but it's alrite.. but dardie reali give me a feeling tt he doesn't wanna b at home.. haiis.. tis feeling is wit him since tt dae.. tt dae... shan't sae more.. it onli makes me cry.. alrite.. let's proceed to the interesting part of the dae

CHINESE LESSON! joyce wong! hahas.. in chinese class.. basicalli nobody is listening to the teacher lahs.. hahas.. so boring lehs! toking bout write compo stuff.. hahas.. i noe le.. hee.. then she was saying hu saw de HBD block downstairs de notice board got de poster on preventing the breeding of mosquitoes.. smth lyk tt.. i was there nodding my head.. hahas.. den she sae.. C.. KIMBERLY SAW B4.. then i shocked! hahas.. suddenli somebody call my name.. hahas.. then i started luffing -.- .. i told joyce i didn c b4.. then she lufff.. oso dunno for wad.. furnie mehs?! -.- hahas.. then my table got tis rubber band.. hahas.. i tie to the desk de. cos tt time i wanna tie smth then pull the rubber band too hard then piak.. it broke.. hahs. then i tie to my tabl.. so can shoot ppl =x.. then i keep shooting joyce.. hahas.. she keep OUCH!.. then i keep saying SORRY SORRY SORRY!! wahahas =x but i stil play -.- hhas.. then i told joyce wong about de pakistan earthquake.. i sae it's my fault.. cos yst i was skipping.. tt's y. then she luff.. then she told me it's a scale of 7.7. v huge.. then i sae..cos my sis skip together with me -.- haha.. she luff louder.. hahas.. then i told her on our graduation nite.. there'll b flood.. ahahas.. cos my dad will scream! cos report book! hahas.. then we tink awhile we sae tsunami together.. our reaction is so cute lors.. wahahahs.. then i was kinda hyper lahs.. after tt.. hahas.. lalalas.. then art here i come.. hahas.. we tok alot of tings lors.. hahas.. me .. joyce.. meiting.. hee.. secrets! wahahas.. ((: BYE~

oh shit.. i forgt wad i wanna blog.. wahahas.. bullshit.. -.- .. sians.. todae whole dae at home.. i slp.. i study.. i watch tv.. i eat.. i bathe. i shit.. hahas.. tis is wad i do at home todae lors.. meaningful bahs? ((: ..

U CONTROL UR OWN LIFE BOII! ((: .. tt's all i wanna sae to u... u have al the rights...u noe hu u r..

CHOO WEE KIAN! cheer up lahs.. hee.. polar bear ask u cheer up yeah! u noe y onli me can make u happy?! cox i'm ur polar bear mahs-.- .. FAT FAT RND RND WHITE WHITE DE! wahahahas.. =x .. thanks oso bahs.. ((: i sad sad u oso got pat pat my head.. ((:.. xie le..

was playing game with cerise in msn. wahahas.. she got nth beter to do.. i oso lors.. hahas.. nw we end the game.. cos to bored le.. hahas.. msn game? *shake head.. hee.. sians! tml stil got sch lehs.. hahas. i kinda envy ade they al lors.. no more sch le.. hahas.. can wake up late lors.. argh! hahas.. tml got 4 periods of physic lors.. zzz.. sians! .. hahas.. ok fine.. wadever. i'm going to bed ((:.. GDNITES PEEPS! sweet dreams..

Saturday, October 08, 2005

happy bday may lee!

SURPRISE! hahas.. todae is may lee bday! HAPPY BIRTHDAY! hee.. hmmm..let's tk bout yst.. i slept at 4 lor.. hahas.. cos i was watching vcd? hahas.. yeah.. hmm.. reach home rnd 2 mahs. wahahahas.. went may lee hse to surprise her yst. hahas.. tiring lors! -.-

yst nite i was damn fcuked up by tis two guys.. shit them! hmpft.. i was in cheers.. then i was v hot mahs.. den i took off my jacket.. i was wearing spag top lah.. den tis two guys walked pass me and sae.. take it all off sweetie.. I IGNORE! then i walked away.. another side sway sway they were there oso.. then bhind me tok dunno wad.. then sae.. wan some dick? i was there kao. cb lors. i wanna scream back but dun have de guts.. -.- fcuk them.. i was darn pissed! mother fcuker.. cb lahs.. wao lao.. was so agitated le.. hurhur.. i wanna tel mt.. but then she didn hear.. then i told her outside cheers.. hurhur.. slap them arhs.. hope they kana bang by cars =x.. we don't need tis type of ppl on earth.. *argh! forgt about it! hmpft.. if i c them one dae again.. i'll smack them a few times!

alrite.. hmpft! *put it all out!.. wahahahas... alrite.. then went to may hse lors.. hhaas.. was planning how to surprise her and everything lahs.. hahas..den we got it.. went to knock her door bring her down and pour coke on her.. then run run run -.- i was running lyk mad.. hahas. machiam siao lanng.. hahas.. alrite. then she need to find her present! hee. it was arnd de rubbish bin lahs =x.. cardbox alrite.. hahas.. den she so furnie lors. at fes go there kick kick de box then walk off.. hahas -.- she realli tot we buy her bicycle.. -.- no money arhs.. hahas .. lazeee lazeee lazee! BYE!

Friday, October 07, 2005

reformat!

REFORMAT COM! finally arhs. hahas.. got some of my pic back lors.. cos may send wo.. hahas.. den copy frm friendster.. zzz.. sians lahs.. haha. everything gone.. hahas. but then stil no sound lors! argh! hahas. no sound card.. sad lehs.. hahas ..

tis few daes me and ben so good siah.. hahas.. gd fren arhs.. wahahahas.. in sch onli one class away oso wan crap.. hahas. -.- .. alrite.. nvm about tt. wahahahas.. he's alrite lors.. hahas.. alot of tings to tok -.- he talkative wad.. hahas.. diongs.. alrite. i'm bored.. i'm going off.. hahahas! ((:

Wednesday, October 05, 2005

BOO!

I'M GOING TO BED! GDNITES PEEPS! SWEET DREAMS! SLEEP TIGHT! DON'T WET YOUR BED! ((:

BOO!

boo! jus a short entry bahs.. before i leave my hse.. hahas.. going back to sch soon.. for night study.. hahas.. eyes stil kinda swollen.. zzz.. mayb wearing cap.. wahahahas.. plsu spec? hahas.. wear liao lyk dunno wad criminal lors.. hahas.. hai shi bu yao.. hahas.. wear one of them can le.. wahahahas.. hmmm.. jus nw CY gave one 10 yrs old boi my add lors.. i was kinda shocked when he tel me he's 10 yrs old.. hahas.. but he's cute lahs ((: hahas.. alrite.. shall end here.. ((: bye~

pretty one eyed

had a tough night yst -.- .. was tossing and turning on bed.. cldn't get to slp.. cos i'm feeling rather xing ku.. i'm hot all over.. de heat is making me go .. argh!.. yst nite mummie came home late.. then she came into my room.. she came in to check on me.. so furnie.. cos i suddenli felt smth so cold touching me.. hahas.. i was woken up by tt pair of cold hands.. hahas.. then she was checking if my bodi got any spots.. hahas.. so furnie.. she tot i got dengue.. tt's realli cute.. u shld c her face.. hahas..

tis morn i woke up.. my eyes swollen again.. i dunno y.. mayb realli got dengue.. wahahas. was suppose to c doc jus nw.. but was raining outside.. then i lazee oso =x.. after i woke up i can't get back to slP.. de bed is too hot.. hahas.. den wanna bathe de water so cold.. hahas.. den i went to studee... did my maths.. hahas.. then went to bed at 9 plus.. slp til 11.. hahas. den was msging benjamin lors.. hahas.. crappy fellow.. he's in sch.. hahas.. then sae wad.. chi class mei you wo blah blah blah.. hahas.. slaps him!.. hahas..

during lunch.. ah ma is toking about al those stuff again.. which makes me feel very uneasy about.. i didn't noe y.. dad is having a hard time there.. with al de flooded area and no electricity and stuff.. and she's here nagging.. zzz.. but.. cann't blame her oso lahs.. old liao den tis kinda ting happen.. haiis.. sad arhs.. then she need to go for another operation.. on the same leg.. same place.. cos de metal plate go out of place.. then need to put it back lors.. if didn operate then can't walk.. doc sae involves danger lors.. then she's concern bout money lors.. dad told me.. money is nt the matter.. it's her decision to operate or not.. we can't possibly force her into the operating thearte if she doesn't wan to.. yeah.. so tt's it.. shan't elaborate furthur ((:

Monday, October 03, 2005

pretty goldfish

i'm feeling rather. empty, hungry and stupid now. why am i feeling this? cos i saw something that i didnt like to see. weiping sae being kind to others is being cruel to urself. true? i don't know lahs. hmmm.. i shan't get too affected by what he do or sae. y shld i? ((: i'm always lyk tt..easily influnence .. so let it b. hahas..

todae didn manage to go to sch.. i was a goldfish in the morn. -.- .. can u imagine kim with a goldfish eye? wahahas.. so furnie eh? but don't luff.. it hurts! ((: wondering what ade they al doing now.. gee.. nw they having history.. hahas.. yst nite darious was there telling me his history is the best in class. hahas.. onli HISTORY! and he sae adores hitler alot.. esp. his lill hair on his mouth =x . and his haiir.. he sae it's stylish! oh mine oh mine.. hahas.. alrite.. tt's his taste. hahas.. i shan't comment on tt.. wahahas ..

alrite.. let's tok bout yst earli morn.. the grp of us were waiting for bus to go home at tamp inter.. rnd 12.45 .. may and kris and ade bus was suppose to end at 1235.. then 3A is night bus so there shld stil b 3A! hhas.. but in the end. kris and may and ade walk home.. then me and mt wait for 3A.. waited for half an hour.. no bus lors.. then realise no more le.. haiis.. it's already 1.35.. zzz.. haha.. went toilet.. mt wanna shh shh.. then i waited outside.. then she so fast come out liao siah.. she ask me got hear any sound.. i sae dun haf lehs.. she sae she heard smth inside.. tt goes.. " ah ah ah " =x.. true lahs.. hahas.. then she was kinda freak out lahs.. hahas.. then in the end we go draw money take cab home.. hahas.. bo bian.. no money.. haiis.. hee ((: then she came my hse slp at 7am lors.. zzz.. she read comics.. hahas.. but i clever i slept at 4 plus.. wahahas ((: then woke up at 12 lyk tt.. cos she gotta meet may lee.. go c tong en.. hahas.. heard tt J8 not many ppl.. hahas.. so furnie lors =x.. less than 30 ppl go take signature frm her.. if it's me i sure paiseh til no face lors.. hahas.. alrite can't b so bad.. so i'm off~ hahas .. be back ltr if i can..hee (: gotta study wit my stupid eyes.. hahas ((:

Sunday, October 02, 2005

Body and soul

you know the feling.. the way your heart aches whenever you think of him or her; the funny ache in the pit of your stomach; and the inane inability to wipe the silly grin off your face in his or her presence. yep, that's love for you.

Being drunk on love produces on emotional high that is similar to the effects of imbibing. it send you into an euphroic state, mking everything seem more pleasant and lovely, thus the expression 'to look at the world through rose- tinted glasses'. life finaly has a meaning and nothing can get you down, not even your parents' incessant nagging or your pesky younger siblin's annoying taunts. why, you might even find yourself embracing them or volunteering to take them out for a day - something you thought you would do only when hell freezes over.
Love also has the ability to reduce the most articulate person into a blubbering mess in front of his/her object of affection. all sense flies out the dooe, and faults and imperfections miraculously disappear. as they say, 'love is blind'.

One of the benefits of being in love is that it satisfies your emotional needs. without love, you tend to subconsciously resort to subsitues to fill a void in your life. Most replacements for love - overreacting, imbibling, overworking and even smoking - are detrimental to your health. when you fal in love, these bad habits fade into the background in the face of the real deal. you don't need to seek a replacement for that missing chapter in your life anymore.

there's nothing better than love for a healthy dose of that feel - good factor. for girls, nothing will keep their hearts warmer than the sense of security found in their boyfriends' arms, and for guys, knowing that someone thinks the world of them does wonders for their self esteem.

love also banishes all signs of fatigue. knowing that you're going to meet up with your sweetie at the end of the day gives you that euphorix sprut of energy neede to get through school and rush into their arms when you meet them. previous feelings of tiredness miraculously disappear, even though you might have been up since six in the morning.

love can also be a cardio workout! the quickening of your pulse in your loved one's presence means that youe body has released adrenaline into your bloodstream. the heart pumps more blood around your body, which is the same reaction after you exercise. you get the same benefits as a workout session.
studies have also shown that there is scientific proof that love is beneficial to your well being. in love and survival, the scientific basis for the healing power of intimacy (harper collins, 1988), Dean Ornish, M.D., helped conduct a study at Yale that involved 119 men and 40 women undergoing coronary angiography. those who felt the most loved and supported has substantially less blockages in their heart arteries than the other patients! a related study on men with high levels of risk factors of angrina found that these who felt that their partners did not show them love experienced almost twice as much angrina as those whose partners showed them love.

:when you feel loved, nurtured, cared for, supported, and intimate, you are much more likely to be happier and healthier. you have a much lower risk of getting sick and, if you do, a much greater chance of surviving," Ornish concludes.

being in love also motivates you to take a healthy interest in your appearnace. after all. you do want to look your best for your sweetie, don't you? you're more inclined to take up a sport together to give your body the exercise that it needs, or even indulge in a hobby that feeds both your minds. you're looking fab. feeling happier than you've ever been. and gone are the days when you're moping around your house feeling miserable for yourself and perhaps indulging in one Ben & Jerry's too many a la Bridget Jones. yes, love is a many splendoured thing indeed.

Saturday, October 01, 2005

Don't trust in committing suicide

i dun understand why people shall drag their relationship when they already lost faith and interest in it? can't they jus break up with the other half? hmmm.. they're afraid of hurting their partners? wad rubbish is tis? by dragging longer.. u'll hurt them deeper.. don't you know? wad's the point of hanging on when there's no more interest.. jus let it go.. so wad if it's a long relation.there are sure memories.. beautiful and disgusting.. but all these are bygones.. MEMORIES! let him go and keep those memories..

i've went through all these.. one yr 10 mths.. it's long.. and it's the most serious relationship i've been involved in. i've put in alot of effort in making this relation better, i gave my best shot but end up zzz. there were alot of break ups and patch(es) .. i've been rather topid last time.. creating scar on my bodi jus cos tt i'm sad.. i'm 'depressed' .. but i'm scare when i place the penknife on my wrist. I'M SCARE.. i slash myself.. but not deep. most of the time i felt pain but i didn admit. there was onli once.. tt i don't feel pain.. and it's already a permanent scar on my hand. (but not obvious though) .. i realli did tt bcos i love him.. many say i'm topid.. but i'm not listening ((: .. i'm a ger hu is damn bloody deadly sensitive.. i'm always crying.. we're always quarrelling.. and whenever we broke up.. i'll sae i wanna die.. blah blah blah.. but did i? i wun.. sometimes i even lie jus to catch his attention.

so.. when u tink when you break up wit tt guy of urs.. and he sae he wanna end his life.. for wadever reason.. does he feel scare? i beg he do.. it's normal human reaction isn't it? so.. don't worry so much. but i felt tt.. u'll tell 'him' al these becos.. u've develop some feelings for 'him' le bahs. ((: .. follow ur heart bahs ((: i can't say much oso mahs.. i'm a nobodi.. ((: