It's never the same anymore.

Friday, December 29, 2006

ARGH FUCK UP! my previous entry was gone. i type so long and it's gone. ARGH! whatever. i'm more pissed man. ARGH! why am i pissed? Cause of her again. She must really be honured man. ShiHui told me about what she's pissed off today, and after hearing it i was really pissed. What the fuck? did she break any law by messaging me? am i an alien or is it that did she actually annouces that she did not want my name or appearance to spoil her mood? and if she did, i find her really pathetic. GOD! was really pissed alright. Ok. What i'm pissed off again. When we're back from the toilet, there isn't any place to sit so boi and ben went to find chair. boi got one for shihui but ben didn't. the other chair was too dirty. When she saw boy go find chair she stood up and sat on her bf's leg. fine. But after ben said no more chair and shihui said there's one more over there ask ben go take. guess what? no more chair. Cause why? Cause she stood up again and sat on it. i was like what the fuck? is it on purpose or is it that conicidence? ya ya. say i'm sensitive or wad so ever. I'm just so pissed off la. My impression of her actually hits zero, so how bad that can be? I don't care how angelic she can be infront of you guys but i just don't like her words and thinking. I know some stuffs you guys won't even know. i don't understand why is there such a person having such thinking. if she's rich i have nothing to say. But i doubt she is though. I've heard alot, and i've felt alot.What i know for now is i don't like her and she don't like me. THAT'S IT. GOSH. if i'm going to continue to blog i'm going to burst. ARGH. i'm really pissed man. gosh. i'm going to have nightmare tonight for having said so much bad stuff. zzz

Thursday, December 28, 2006

Today went out with Shihui to Arab street. Gosh, was supposed to meet around 130 but then it rained over at her house so we waited till the rain stop. Meanwhile, i went to have my eyebrow plucked. AND gosh again, it hurts so much!! damn it. hahas. Anyway when we met up went to Arab street and then bought a key charm and chain. DIY alright. hahas. it ended up so pretty =). After that we went window shopping, wanted to have our nails painted but we couldn't find a design the both of us fancy so we had nothing on our nails. LOL after everything we went to find the 2 rascals. =D

Alright i'm gonna blog something that i don't feel right about today. here goes~ I don't think that there's a need to have such a big reaction about it. OK. probably it's human nature to be like that BUT THEN i'm sorry i can't put myself in your shoe cause i find it too ridiculous. i don't see a need to be "jealous". I apologise if we've threw you aside but you should at least understand the relationship between people. It's normal to have friends that you can click with and it's also normal to have friends that you can't click with, SO i don't see a need for you being like that. =)

Monday, December 18, 2006

Hmm. i think i should clarify some things. Irene thought that ben and me were together for two years when they're together. I felt it a little ridiculous about this matter cause i only knew him end of feb this year. Furthurmore, two years ago i'm crazy in love with eddy. Even if i've knew him that time i won't give a damn to him. so please get the right information don't give people fake information. Those fake informations mae me sounds like a bitch who steals other people boyfriends. I'm not that kind of person.

ya i admit that i didn't like you. And the problem is not that you're ben's ex girlfriend. I know it's normal to actually dislike the woman my boy love before. But i didn't dislike you cause of this reason. Guess what? i dislike you cause of what i've heard bout you saying things like it never happen before. And it makes me so uncomfortable though. But whatever it is. i just hope things will get better for you and me. if this post has any offences, i apologise. =)

Sentosa part ll

MORNING! i'm here to continue yesterday's entry =D . alright, after we went to siloso beach we head to dolphin lagoon. OMFG. so many people there and the weather was damn hot. We watied for half an hour for the show to start. The dolphins in singapore was really cannot make it. Their appearance was not really very pretty cause they're not fully pink isn't it? =) but other than the appearance they're perfect in every other thing. They're cute.

SEE THE PEOPLE! *slap head*. After the show we wanted to go to the merlion but guess what? THE Q FOR THE RED LINE BUS WAS FUCKING LONG! we wanted to cut q but the angelic us still thinks that taking the yellow line bus is better cause lesser people. SO we actually sat to the arrival centre and waited for the blue line bus instead. -.- it's one big big big round. BUT NEVERMIND. Woo. When we reached the merlion we wanted to go to the dragon trail but when i saw there's this steep stairs leading all the way up to the dragon trail i almost fainted. LOL. But luckily there's escalator to bring us up. we're saved from the scary steep stairs. =D. Reached the top.

Walked the dragon trail. It was like so deserted inside. There's like only us inside. Haha. i felt like power ranger acting in one of the episodes. LOL. With the dragon bones and everything. i shall show you pictures of the nature inside the forest. hahas. it's sort of scary but fun!

WOO! finally we made it to the exit. hahas. from dragon trail to siloso beach! We're like so happy when we're at the exit. hahas. finally away from all the mosquitoes and spider! argh! after which we took a tram back to the beach carpark and off we go. HAHA. out of sentosa, heading to marina south for dinner! =D i was sunburn only on one side of the arm. wtf. it's UGLY! dinner was really full. gosh. Stomach almost exploded. it's a nice trip. =D after dinner it's home sweet home! =D

gee. Went sentosa yesterday! was a fun day! =D. i really did enjoy myself yesterday despite of all the long q(s) and hot weather. Yesterday we woke up so early in the morning and left house around 810. Cause need to reach pasirPanjang supposely at 8 but we're late. HAHA. mummy need to reach there at 8 to help out with the stall. We need the car so we gotta follow her. =).
after sending her there, baby drove us to sentosa!=D first destination, under water world! woo.. Baby dare not touch the fishes! lol. such a scardy cat! >0( . BUT I DARE NOT AS WELL =x kristal and pearlyn was rather keen in touching and they did! =D. Took alot of pictures inside which is kind of cute! saw jellyfish and thought they looked like sperm. LOL.

Looks like sperm right?! =x. Alright. Enough of the jellyfish. HAHA. we saw this suberDiver and thought that he was cute so baby asked him to wave and he took a picture of him. hahas. After underwaterworld, pearlyn insisted in going to the beach SO we went and they went to play with water. Ben actually swim to the middle -.- throwing us behind. hahas. the sun was really majestic at noon. i was rather burned but only on one side of my hand -.- it's very ugly. HA. Pearlyn was standing at the edge of the water and guess what? it looks like those poster that says : " depression" =x

hahas. it does look alittle like uh? =) she's gonna kill me for sure after she see this entry. gee.. alright people i'll update more tomorrow I PROMISED! i'm super duper tired. hahas goodnight peeps.

Sunday, December 17, 2006

14th of DECEMBER was alright. No quarrels =D. Like what he planned, he went to chu shi in the morning till 1 plus then i was at home sleeping. cause of a terrible headache. zzz. I slept till 4. Although i was rather lazy to go out but i still manged to convince myself saying that he made an effort to plan for today so don't disappoint him. AND SO I DID NOT DISAPPOINT HIM! alright. He reached my place around 5 plus 6. Wao. He gave me a bouquet of roses, was kinda shocked la. But happy isn't it. hahas. THANK YOU BABY! love you~. hmmm.

Went to cine to have our dinner! went to the xin wang hong kong cafe. My appetite that day wasn't that good, so there's left over =( After dinner, we went to walk around then went to play pool. Gosh it's been such a long time since i last played la. gosh. it's sooooo boring when i can't hit in any of the balls. =( .

THE stupid heart i did was SLANTED! -.-

Wednesday, December 13, 2006

They're back from sdyney. Yesh yesh. Which means i won't have peace =x hahas. gosh. I shan't talk about their trip CAUSE I'LL GET JEALOUS! >0( .

OK! maths test was so disappointing! i've got so many careless mistake which means. ARGH. my A is gone. *PULL MY HAIR* -sighs. the next day digital was also a gone case. I've given up on that module for the common test. -.- next up is EG1009! i must pass that module! I MUST! hahas. Got to really study later alright. SO GUYS LET ME STUDY! NO DISTURBING PLEASE =D

Yesterday, after my paper i waited for ben to finish camp around 5plus. So i accompany ayew they all go library study. Then guess what? when i wanted to leave it rained so big can?! i was like all wet la. DAMN IT! *SCREAM* hmmm. went to meet ben la. Then went to his house don't know do what lo. I went there use computer, watch tv. That's all. Boring life.

Tomorrow is the 14th of the month.Was not at all pleased when he told me he's going to beat drum tomorrow morning. I just hate it when he had anything that involve chu shi on the 14th. He said he's going means i got to go home after my paper and come out again. I think it's super bo liao lahs. Probably i'll not go out tomorrow. who knows? probably i'll be asleep.Whatever. I don't want this to spoil my mood furthur. BYE! zzz

Tuesday, December 12, 2006

THEY'RE BACK FROM SDYNEY! =D

Friday, December 08, 2006

urgh! Today is a painful day for me mans! cramp cramp cramp! zzz. the cramp sucks. This morning went to school for badminton! HAHA. B-A-D-M-I-N-T-O-N OK! i did exercise! but that stupid fabian made me run here and there like mad. Tiring + hot. Damn it. i played for about an hour and i stopped =x. Shit there like a rock till phillip they all stopped and sat next to me. THEN we played cards! hahas. two person also can play dai ZEE. LOL. =x

After badminton i went to buy NYP polo tee cause i didn't bring extra clothing to change. DAMN It! when i'm paying money for the shirt i saw GIORDANO AT THE BACK OF THE SHOPPING ARCADE! argh! if i know earlier i would have go there isn't it?! *pulling my hair* whatever! buy liao cannot refund! =(. went to eat then to lecture~

During lecture my stomach was terrible but after lecture it was better. Then waited for ayew to finish his creative tutorial for an hour. While waiting i read newpaper, sing song to myself, daydream, and take photos =D. After he finished, walked to collect his bike. LOL he said before i sit onto his bike he got to brief me first. cause he's afraid that i fly away -.- *slap his ass!* then wore helmet and off we go! Woooo~ it was fun la. hahas. Then we went to study. eh ayew, sorry ar. i didn't really help you that much. SORRY! Around 8 plus we went off and he sent me home =) thanks.

ayew's bike =)

Hmmm, baby is having dragon practise now. Wondering how is it. Heard that ahboii running second place. Gosh, must be scary. alright i'll stop here. Got to sleep early. Tomorrow got to wake up early and meet kopi and ayew they all go expo study. =) goodnight!

Tuesday, December 05, 2006

Haiis, upon seeing them leave the house with their luggages i felt so sad and lost. urgh! i want to go with them as well! but i can't. I'm so sadded! urgh! *pulling my hair*. stupid nyp! why cannot give us earlier holiday?! if not i can go sdyney!! argh! missed one chancee to sdyney already. fu*ked. i hate that school! just now i was at the airport waiting for them to arrive. But when i went to check for the departure time for flight SQ231 to sdyney, it's delay till 0245. i called them and told them about it though, so i didn't managed to actually send them off at the airport. Instead, i went home.

wasn't happy on the way home. my father attitude towards me wasn't that great probably he's not very happy with the time delayed. It actually made my mood bad. futhermore, when my mood is bad i have to go home alone when someone told me " sorry, he's on his way down." i thought we're going home together, but forget it. brothers always come first isn't it? what's girlfriend? = nothing.

btw, he said he look sexy in this picx. i've got no comment on it. so you guys be the judge bahs =D

Saturday, December 02, 2006

THE OUTFIT OF THE DAY! =D

Today went to school as usual. Attended one hour of lecture then i'm off-.- only one hour in school. NYP TIMETABLE SUCKS! alright, after that i walked to YCK mrt station with FABIAN AND JUSWAN. i'm so angelic. ROFL. i took 72 to tampines mall. WALKED AROUND FOR ONE HOUR. ALONE! waiting for that idiot to knock off! >0( . finally around 6 he a arrived. THAT IDIOT! we went to eat pasta. Gosh it's like so long since i ate pasta. but i was so full to finish those delicious stuff. Poor thing. After dinner, we went SHOPPING! it's been so long since i shop TOO! wahahahas, i've seen so many stuff i wanna buy. I'm MUST get them! =D. Hmmm, AFTER shopping, we went to erm, his house to watch the 9 o'clock show (which is the last espisode.=( ). Happy ending =D. Then we're off to Andy's 21st birthday chalet! Woo, he looks better in person than in photos. HAHAS. THAT IDIOT is going to pester me when he see this. Reached there saw so many familiar faces! hahas. i saw YIGUANG, GUOJIE! was kind of shocked to see them again. It's been ages since i last see them. But i can see that they're doing good lors. =D. Keep it up dudes! whole night was talking to XiWEI . Everytime see him forever ask me intro girls to him. -.- XIWEI YOU'RE MAKING ME BORED! alright la i help you by promoting you in my blog ok!? GIRLS! XIWEI IS SINGLE AND AVALIABLE! HE'S ONE GREAT CATCH! HANDSOME AND CARING!. XIWEI YOU OWE ME ONE.! ;) .
and you better don't teach bad my ben! bring him go meet other girls?! must bring me also! =)

alright! i'm going to bed! THAT IDIOT IS WAITING FOR ME TO FINISH UPDATING. AND HE'S TIRED! =) gdnites!

Friday, December 01, 2006

Was supposed to go to the BRAND NEW IKEA yesterday but some things happened and i didn't make it there -.- . i was just taking those driving books out of HIS cupboard and then there's so many things that slided out. Of course i'm curious, after i saw what's written on those envelopes i'm more curious than ever. what's on it was, " To BenjaminLo, From Irene ZhuZhu and Hezlin." If you guys are me, are you guys curious? =D

i read it though i know i shan't intrude HIS PRIVACY. i wasn't feeling that great after reading it. Probably i felt jealous in a sense which i don't know why. But there's one more feeling that i felt at that time. Which is i felt that they're a loving couple and i'm the third party. -.- i don't know why i've those feelings but when you read what she's wrote on those pieces of paper you'll feel that she really love him. I told him she really loves you but you just don't appreciate it. If it's not you who disappoint her she won't leave you isn't it? Probably i just entered at the wrong time of his life? that's why i still cannot accept the fact. i'm sorry for being like that.

Yesterday you told me that she's not our enemy, yeah i knew she isn't and i didn't treat her as one. So don't put words into my mouth. Yes, i admit that i didn't like her. Asked me why? Caused she's once here to actually made everything impossible for us.That's why i'm quite agigtated when i hear her name and actually knew that he still keeps those letters. Probably i'm really too sensitive, but that's me. If you really want to hide anything from me jolly well don't let me find out. Make sure you hide it well. I'm not like HER, she can tolerate you for so long but i can't. i'M NOT AS PATIENT AS SHE ! alright whatever it is, i hope things get better though. (sighs) who doesn't want that..