It's never the same anymore.

Saturday, July 24, 2004

RiGht hErE wAiTnG fOr yOU -RicHarD mArx-

Ocean's apart day after day
And i slowly go insane
I hear your voice on the line
But it dosen't stop the pain

If i see you next to never
How can we say forever

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

I took for granted, all the times
That i thought would last somehow
I hear the laughter, i taste the tears
But i can't get near you now

Oh, can't you see it baby
You've got me going crazy

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

I wonder how can we survive
This romance
But in the end if i'm with you
I'll take the chance

Oh, can't you see it baby
You've got me going crazy

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

-Right here waiting for you-~

Only LovE.. -TrAdEmArK-

2a.m and the rain is falling
Here we are at the crossroad once again
You're telling me you're so confused
You can't make up your mind
Is this meant to be
you're asking me~

But only love can say- Try again or walked away
But i believe for u and me
The sun will shine one day
So i'll just play my part
And pray you'll have a change of heart
But i can't make you see it through
That's something only love can do

In your arms as the dawn is breaking
Face to face at a thousand miles apart
I've tried my best to make you see
There's hope beyond the pain
If we give enough, We learn to trust

But only love can say- Try again or walked away
But i believe for u and me
The sun wil shine one day
So i'll just play my part
And pray you'll have a change of heart
But i can't make u see it through
That's something only love can do...

I know if i could find the words
That touch you deep inside
You'd give our dream just one more chance
Don't let this be our last good-bye...~

hAix! wad de heck m i thinking?

y nehx? y mux i cry for him? everytime lorx.. tis few daes oso always cry.. dunno wad's happening oso.. haiz! todae in sch.. i oso dunno .. quarrel bahz.. then i cry in class..-.-.. *cry little bit* coz having chi course.. then cannt suddenli cry.. ltr ppl scare scare.. haiz! while msging him wo ku le.. *my tears was lyk.. kaoz.. so xing ku.. wan cry but cannt cry.. coz i'm cheerfl queen remember? haiz! i'm so xing ku manz.. i'm nt happy but then have to act til very happy.. haiz! y we better then de past? i dunno.. mayb.. but then it's realli hurting lorx.. yst listen to ying yue re ji then cry le.. so sad.. coz it's exactly de same as me n him.. al the giving in.. al those i've ren.. all bcome xi guan liao.. then he wil take for granted liao.. whenever quarrel he wil noe tt i wil msg him de.. so no need worry so much.. i wil sure give in de.. awhile ok liao.. everytime lyk tt wan wad.. haiz.. bcome xi guan le.. it's nt a gd sign lorx...haiz.. i dunno lorx.. ltr daddy come down liao i cannt cry liao.. ltr he scold me.. haiz.. he wil scold me sae why everytime cry for him? haiz.. i dunno lorx.. everytime c ppl cry for boys sae they topid.. but then i oso everytime cry for him mahz.. haiz.. he dunno how i feel lorx.. he dunch! haiz haiz haiz! i hate tis feeling!

Friday, July 23, 2004

yOU mEi yoU gO sch!

diong..yst and todae my ear is blocked..lolx. i hear thing oso softer liao.. so scary wor.. hahaz.. but then nw better liao... hmhmhm.. nw stil feeling alittle cold.. i didn go sch todae again lorx..haizz! coz my eye swollen.. so scary..hahaz.. then have ta take maths on other dae liao lorx..-.- tml got history and poa test! hahz.. then after tt got chi course! tt topid course.. hahaz..but then oso good.. coz tml got band.. hahaz.. if de course start at two better! oh ya.. tml got retest for ting xie! hahaz.. and i have ta retake.. i got 1/10 for ting xie?! hahaz..=XxX hahaz.. haiz! i'm so bored wit my life already.. haiz! it's always de same lorx.. fear for tml.. hahaz... sometimes thinking y m i here in tis world? hahaz.. weird~... haiz haiz haiz! tml wp got oral at 2... die die die.. my oral coming soon oso.. *nervOus* kekex.. i'm so sianz nw n he's sounding so sianz al of a sudden.. hahaz.. lalalala~ i'm a little siao liao.. fever til my brain damage.. hahaz.. ltr stil gotta go back studee for my history! poa.. er.. i go by luck bahz.. hahaz.. i can stil remember de formula shld b alrite bahz..=) wish me luck ya! kEkEx... *drinking ice water* sO sHIoK!..*cough cough* .. hAHax..=X wp sae sick mux eat fried thingy and drink soft drinks.. hahaz..=X...
haiyoz.. he everything oso dun wan tel me.. haiz! i so sad liao.. sianz bcome sad liao..tink back lyk realli got alot of things he didn tel me de wor.. everytime quarrel oso me sae me feelings n everything.. he always sae nth ar bo is mei you.. haiz! so sad liao! wei she me he can't jus sae nehx? haizzzzz! mayb guys r lyk tt? mayb bahz..=).. stil remember he made a empty promise de other time when i'm sick.. he sae he wil confirm come pick me up to sch de next dae.. but i waited he didn.. he sae he woke up late.. haiz! i always gt empty promises from him! hate empty promises!!!then he very long didn send me to sch liao.. haiz! then he didn even mention he wanna send me to sch tml.. haiz! i was waiting for tt.. but then i noe he wun.. n he nv tot of it...haiyoz.. my attitude sux ya i noe.. but then his is lyk.. realli sux to de core lorx.. his temper is unpreditable de! very happy.. suddenli can very fierce de.. haiz! unpreditable temper is scary ya.. hao le.. stop here le.. dun wanna think bout it liao.. it realli wil make me low manx..! bYE~=)

Thursday, July 22, 2004

sIcK sIcK dE wO~

wO shen bing le! cannt ta han hao mahz..-.- very xing ku wor.. yst nite 12+ woke up then wanna vomit..-.- breathe in de air den feel lyk vomiting.. hahaz..den next morn didn go sch.. coz got fever liao.. then head very pain.. kekex.. then slp til 9+ wake up liao laze rnd.. then use com then 11+ go c doc.. hahaz..den tel doc tis n tt.. then sae i got backache for very long liao wor..then he ask me bend forward bend backward..-.- then nt pain.. coz todae my back nt pain..-.- de pain is come n go de lorx.. hahaz.. den he sae is my sitting posture bu hao..-.-.. he ask me dun sit too long.. hahaz.. then lyk tt lorx.. *aH cHoO*.. topid de.. dunno wp is didn bring hp or didn switch on.. -.- all my msg al mei you reply.. then didn msg wo ask me hao mahz..-.- jus nw tot he msg me but then is jerlynn.. hahaz.. jerlynn guan xin wo ohx.. hahaz.. xie xie..=)
hmhmhm..shijin.. hahaz.. good lorx.. at least got tok to him mahz.. hahaz.. he look so young lyk tt lorx.. baby face.. hahaz.. his face so small..=X hahaz.. but then ni xi huan can liao lahz..=) hao le lahz.. i stop here.. my hand tired liao..=X *aH cHOO*

Wednesday, July 21, 2004

lovE~

hmhmhm.. todae suddenli tink of life.. then sianz liao.. y god gif us love when there's no true love in tis world? haiyoz.. c ppl sad sad me myself oso sad sad le.. c gerger sad coz of love i feel so confuse.. y is gerger always de one hu is hurt by boiboi?haiz..wei she me?! xiaoAi bu yao sad sad le lorx.. ni yao ku jui ku chu lai bahz..=)..eh.. u sae ur tears unlimited de.. i dunno wad to sae liao wor.. hahaz.. u shoot me til i bwg..lolx..anithin jus dial my no. lorx.. i'll help if i can..=)..if need my shoulders.. hahaz..it's al urs..-shy-.. hahaz... hmhmhm..
todae after sch wo jiu hui jia le..*gUaI* hahaz.. hmhmhm.. nth do in sch oso.. hahaz..after assembly our class second to walk out mahz.. then saw desmond lorx.. diongz.. is he diaox me fes! then i diaox him!hAhax.. then diaox here n there. so fun=X hahaz.. but then i got smile smile! hahaz.. then he complain to wp..-.- hahaz.. walking out of sch tt time saw nicholas on de way.. guess wad? i wanna sae halowx.. then my drink.. diongz.. my straws drop onto the floor.. then i luff..-.- hahaz..then walked out sch liao cross de road.. pass de bus stop saw MY..-.- i everytime very scare to sae halowx to him de lehx..lolx.. coz everytime sae halowx to him he dao dao wan.. hahaz.. then ltr ppl sae i siao sae halowx to myself.. hahaz.. then i sae halowx lorx.. then he no reaction lyk tt.. or mayb too soft lorx..then u sae byebye. wahaha.. so funni.. then he sae byebye.. so funni oso..=x..hahaz.. but at least he reply.. kekex.. then walked home hao mahz?so hot! *suN*.. sweating lyk a god damn pig! hahaz.. *learn fRm mrs hAnSon*..wAHahA.. dEn reAch home at 2.. then nth do.. lazee to studee.. hahaz.=X so lazee can? hahaz.. then maths re exam coming liao.. diongz.. dunno how to pass sia..-.-..lolx.. then rnd 4+ went to send wp home.. wahahaha.. wanna b a guy for 1 mth.. kekex..send him home for one mth.. hahaz.. but then in de end i cannt ta han wan lahz.. hahaz..todae send him home liao den i went to take bus lorx.. lolx.. then i didn go down my bus stop.. i stop one stop b4.. hahaz.. then wp waiting for me at my bus stop? diongz.. he msg me when i gt home.. he ask me die til whr.. hahaz.. i sae i reach home liao.. then he sae he didn c me..he sae he was at my bus stop.. i was shocked! hahaz.. *sUrPrIsEd* kekex.. he sae he wan gif me surprise.. but then i didn gt to c him.. but then i'm surprise! lovE u dEarR! -mUacKx-...then nw.. i'm sneezing lyk hell...!!! *ah choo*Ah cHoO*Ah cHOO*...so sad manx.. sick so xing ku.. hahaz.. but then sore throat i stil feel lyk eating ice cream!hahaz..
mY bEloVEd sHIJIn! hAhAx.. u tAke care arhx.. hmhmhm lyk him then wait for him lorx.. as u sae love a person no need reason.. hahaz..*dUn lUrVE mE fOr fUN..lEt mE b dE onE..lOvE mE fOr a rEaSon lEt dE rEaSon b lUrvE* ;)..kEkEx..wait for him wor.. *bu yaO fAng qI*..kEkex..eh..he got stead le then u dun wanna b bitch then wait lorx.. kekex.. remain as fren fes.. hahaz..;) take care wor! mUAckX-hao le stop here! kEkEx~

IsN't lIfE iRonIc?

An old man turned ninety- eight
He won the lottery and die the next day
It's a black fly in your chardonnary
It's a death row pardon two minutes too late
Isn't it ironic...dont you think?
It's like rain on your wedding day
It's a free ride when you've already paid
It's a good advice that you just didn't take
Who would've thought...it figures
Mr. play It Safe was afraid to fly
He packed his suitcase and kissed his kids goodbye
He wanted his whole damn life to take that flight
And as the plane crash down he thought
Well isn't this nice...
Ans isn't it ironic... don't you think?
Well life has a funny way of sneaking up on you
When you think everything's okay and everything's going right
And life has a funny way of helping you out when
You think everything's gone wrong and everything blows up
In your face
A traffic jam when you're already late
A no-smoking sign on your cigarette break
It's like ten thousands spoons when all you need is a knife
It's meeting the man of my dream
And then metting his beautiful wife
And isn't it ironic...don't you think?
A little too ironic...and yeah i really do think...
Life has a funny way of sneaking up on you
Life has a funny, funny way of helping you out
Helping you out...

A sad MAn wIt a saD sToRy~

Whenever Richard Cory went down town,
We people on the pavement looked at him:
He was a gentleman from sole to crown,
Clean favored, and imperially slim.

And he was always quietly arrayed,
And he was always human when he talked;
But still he fluttered pulses when he said,
"Good morning," and he glittered when he walked

And he was rich--yes,richer then a king--
And admirably schooled in every grace:
In fine, we thought he was everything
To make us wish that we were in his place.

So on we worked, and waited for the light,
And went without the meat, and cursed the bread;
And Richard Cory, one clam summer night,
Went home and put a bullet through his head.

isn't life so ironic? dun u tink so? when u r waiting for a cab u c none.. but when u dun wan it.. u c it everywhr.. when u're late for sch de bus is in a jam.. but when u're earli de bus is so damn fast.. rite rite? den when u're rich u're nt happy.. when u're poor u tend to b more relax..-.- LIFE!

Tuesday, July 20, 2004

PeTeRpArker + mArYjAnE

wo xiang ku wor..bu zhi wei she me.. tt's de worst lorx.. for nth cry.. i'm realli turning more into a baby le... diongz.. jus nw went to watch spiderman2.. nice wor.. peter parker shi xi huan mary jane de.. but then coz wanna protect her then dun wan to b wit her.. so sad rite? love her but cannt b wit her stil mux c her gt marry to someone else.. haiz.. but den in de end.. mary jane didn marry de guy.. instead she go find peter parker..=) then haf a happy ending bahz.. hahaz.. so nice... then after de show i got some kind of sore throat.. omg.. i hate it lorx..-.- it hurts..then todae went to his bus stop wait for bus again.. he nt gng to send me home lorx.. it's normal.. but then b4 tt.. he beat rnd de bush.. wahaha.. i gt him.. hahaz.. but dunno y.. my mood sudden change lyk tt.. felt lyk crying so much tis few daes.. y wor? haiyoz..i oso bu dongz.. hmhmhm.. den at bus stop i ask him go home fes.. coz he oso wan go toliet mahz.. then i sae i c him liao i pek cek.. then he ask y.. i sae c u liao i felt lyk crying.. haiyoz.. feeling quite xing ku.. ppl ask me dun tink so much but then i wun listen i wil tend to tink more? hahaz.. i'm lyk tt...hard to handle.. he has me as his gf is he dao mei bahz? haiz.. ppl ask me dun sae tt.. but i feel tt.. m i realli gd? no lorx.. i'm nt.. everything c lyk he buwee me.. but actualli is i buwee him de lorx.. haiz.. some pple wil scold me when i quarrel wit him.. some wil scold him.. sae he so bad.. actualli al tis while is me bahz? lolx.. i felt tt it's always me lorx.. but sometimes i felt tt i'm in no fault? rubbish? hahaz.. whenever we quarrel over smth.. de smallest matter u can find in tis world we oso wil quarrel.. best arhx? he wil tend to wait for me to tok to him again lorx.. haiz.. wad to do? yst nite i jus sae sorry once although i'm realli piss...hahaz..
sometimes wil tink y i tink so much? m i normal? y do i gif him so many probs? y he love me? do he realli love me when he's treating me lyk tis? i dunno how he treat me.. but i know it's de way i dun lyk.. mayb as ppl sae.. dun ask for much.. u wun get it frm him but onli tears..u love him for hu he r.. he dun wanna change de then how hard u try he oso wun change.. let him b hu he r bahz..=) if u r reading tis.. promise me if u dun love me le.. mux tel me wor.. realli mux wor.. dun let me guess dun wait til i sae..=) xie xie ni.. if i sae anything tt offended u.. i'm sorry.. but tt's wad i wanna sae.. u cannt disagree coz it's how i feel...=)

Monday, July 19, 2004

hMpfT!

hMpft! guyS! toPId! every mth 18 confirm quarrel de! hmpft hmpft hmpft! guys always ask ger to trust them but did they do de same thing? kaox! i online whole dae cannt? i didn tok to hu lehx.. hmpft.. afternoon i not infront of com sia.. i doing my stuff.. then i toking to km and annice they al can mahz? hur~! nw so piss off can! ask me dun tink too much when he sae smth.. lyk he dun haf lyk tt... kaox kaox kaox! feel lyk screaming sia.. cry le lahz!!!!!!!!!!! HMPFT HMPFT! banging de topid keyboard nw!!!~!~ blasting my speaker oFF!!! ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so qi ren manz!!! piss me offf... arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! i do so much in de end oso gain nth! onli quarrel quarrel quarrel!i online he oso sae i offline he oso sae.. kaox dunno wad to do liao sia.. !!!!!! lyk tt cannt lyk tis oso cannt.. sometimes i realli doubt if he love me manx.. ppl envy me sae we so long so gd! ya.. gd!? quarrel gd?! scold here and there gd arhx?! PUKE! HAIX! everytime i make him cry nia mahz.. everytime i'm de one hu is bad mahz.. always me! quarrel oso always me mahx.. i'm everytime so bad!!!!! HAIX!!!!

DEAR!! 1 YR 3 mThS lIAo~!! hAHAx.. xx18042003xx1645200xx!!! exactly wor!!

fOrEvEr

he sae he love me
he sae he care
he gave me love n me learn

he sae he love me
he sae he care
he gave me gift n take me out

i asked him
he sae he was true
but i saw him wit another

he promised forever
forever
forever onli makes me cry...

dun promise forever if forever onli makes ppl cry..=)

fri~ sat~

hmhmhm...fri and yst didn update wor.. coz fri i went out haf dinner wit wp.. then went home late late.. yst oso.. went out wit him then came home 11.30 lyk tt liao.. so tired.. then didn update.. paiseh wor..;) hmhmhm..todae is me n him 1 yr 3 mths..=) kekex.. then yst went out him lorx.. coz he sae yst go out todae can rest mahz.. hahaz.. yst went out wit his 2 frens..-.- lolx.. so sianz noe.. coz they al al toking bout cars cars cars de.. then oso go c cars cars cars de.. then i so sianz lorx..follow them al de way.. diam diam..-.- then i wan cry liao arhx..cannt expect 3 guys to follow me go shopping mahz..diongz.. then wp bluff me wor.. sae dinner time then we on our own liao.. diongz..then they al eating dinner outside mahz.. then eat together lorx..-.- lolx.. actualli onli got me..wp and kuku? de.. i go out i dun lyk odd numbers lorx.. it's either he leave me alone or leave him alone lorx.. lyk so bad lyk tt.. but then he choose to leave me alone..-.- sad rite? *tsk tsk tsk*...then i so tired.. feel lyk walking alone wor.. hahaz.. then after forhod come liao then me and wp go walk walk awhile.. coz they looking at dye cars mahz..then we go walk walk lorx.. hahaz.. then went mini toons then wp bought de hang hp de thingy.. he got one and i got one lorx.. lolx.. then went to carefour walk walk.. then go back find them.. they real funni sia.. we behind them nia they dunno..-.- after awhile then they realise..hahahaz!then 4 person even no. better bahz... after tt we went parklane... go de jap de shop c c.. there so scary wan wor.. felt so bu shu fu there lorx.. then after they c liao then we go eat mac..lolx..wao kuku and wp eating mac tt time so damn sarcastic manx.. ice cream oso wan hao lian here and there..-.- lolx.. both siao wan.. then after tt coz of forhod recommand we went to 4th level c if got massage not.. coz he sae got special service de..lolx.. then wp high liao lorx..-.- then went upstair.. dun have wor.. instead there's a model shop.. then got those models charbo wan.. didn wear clothes..-.- arbox is wear til can c *ah hem* wan.. hahaz.. then wp and forhod bth them manx.. they all so siao wan.. *kick wp ass*..lolx.. BTH! hmhmhm.. then after tt we sit bus home..lolx.. 12? so long noe.. haizyox.. then inside so cold oso.. then wan slp cannt slp..lolx..then papa call and scold liao..-.- hahaz.. den wanna reach home liao.. wp so fierce wor.. topid wan.. ask him bcareful while going home.. then he so fierce.. mayb me oso lorx.. me oso sae alot of times bahz.. then he bu shuang.. haiz.. but then i oso wan him bcareful mahz.. haiz haiz haiz!...

Thursday, July 15, 2004

haiyoz..my dear wp didn go sch again..-.-...todae he went to c doc..then doc sae food poisoning..-.- nan guai he tummy ache til so li hai.. haiyoz.. eat so many things.. hahaz.. everyting oso eat.. lolx.. hmhmhm.. but then wo xing tong wor.. c him in pain.. then todae he went to sch for oral.. while me and meiting go meet my sis for lunch.. after lunch.. me and meiting went to tm coz i wan go shop for clothes.. wahahaha.. then shop so long dunno wanna buy wad noe.. then go tis fashion...then meiting keep prompting me to try clothes..then i go try lorx.. hahaz.. fan zhen try oso free de.. hahaz..then try one.. hahaz.. look okok lorx.. but then little bit weird.. haha..then take another 3 inside try.. wahahaha.. then i bought 2! hahaz..one dress and one coat bahz.. hahaz.. then altogether cost 35 bahz.. okok lorx.. then meiting sae next time wanna buy clothes dun dare ask her out.. hahaz.. ask her out fun wor.. hahaz.. next time i no ppl go out can ask her along liao.. hahaz..then buy clothes can buy together.. coz our nan cu al de same same de.. hahaz.. so alike sia.. hahaz.. i oso kinda shocked bahz.. hahaz..hmhmhm.. after buy liao meiting gotta go le lorx.. then i wait for her bus wit her.. after tt went to wp hse c c him .. then tok tok awhile then went to kfc buy chicken for my sis..-.- hahaz.. then it took me a long time ti gt home..-.- waited for de bus for ver long.. then i s malu in de bus.. i fell onto a guy lorx.. diongz.. then so paiseh noe.. haiz! and it's a middle age man.. diongz.. then he look at me as if asking me wad m i doing sia.. lolx.. i so malu man! lolx.. luckily de man went out earli.. hahaz..haiyoz.. then todae km msg me.. haiz.. so sad for her.. but then i dunno wad to do wor.. haiz.. i felt very useless jus nw.. when i dunno wad to do to make her happy.. haiz..km arhx.. dun sad le.. dun care bout tt guy.. he's a bastard lorx.. as u sae mahz.. guys r all bastard..smile hao mahz..=) mux happy happy de wor..

mEmOrIeS~

xiaoAi bu yao sad sad le lorx.. hmhmhm.. guys r always lyk tt de bahz.. dun trust a guy totally when u dun realli noe him lorx.. as in dun put in too much.. u wun noe which guy wil hurt u n which guy wil not..=)although u haf new stead liao.. dun give him al ur love..make sure u noe him very well b4 u realli love him bahz? =) *smIlex*.. once u xiang tong liao then dun tink back liao... memories stil can lorx.. if wil make u sad sad de den bu yao tink! kekEs..as for stead everytime go out wil always hold hands mahz? dun tink so bahz.. me and wp sometiems go out oso lyk fren de..-.- *coz he bu hui zhi dongz!* lOlx.. sometimes oso wil gt alittle piss off...hmhmhm..bu yao sad le..=)
hmhmhm..after readin her journal.. sort of tink back to de past lorx.. diongz..den i read til got johnathan didi name.. i chua tio..lolx..hmhmhm..tink back of last time he treat me sianx sianx then tot of he telling me tt if he sianx one ger liao he wil treat her lyk tt? while walking to sch time.. i stil remember wor.. it's very long ago liao.. mid of last yr when we were in our 3rd mth or 4th mth? ya..den he tok to me oso sianz sianz de.. hahaz.. mayb he tired lorx.. hu noes.. hmhmhm.. den we quarrel bout alot of thingys oso wor..jealous here n dere.. me n him is lyk.. diongz..stead for 3-4 daes nia wanna break liao..-.- li hai rite? hahaz.. then quarrel quarrel quarrel.. kekex.. then he jio me tt time i stil lyk alvin de.. lolx.. but then slowly slowly feeling for alvin fade le.. coz wp realli put alot of efforts and feeling to jio me bahz.. tt's how i feel lorx..then he everytime sad sad de.. i c him sad i felt so bad lorx.. then got one time he ask me i accept le..=) i rejected him 3 times le bahz.. then after 1 mth 18 daes... i finalli accepted lorx.. hahaz..frm 18 april 03 i start to noe wad's de feeling of love is le.. kekex.. then i tink back if i stead wit alvin de hua.. mayb it wil b another ai qing tt is nt meant to b bahz..=)..hmhmhm..but mw i'm wit my boi and i'm happy..kekes..last time break alot alot of times..he tsk tsk alot of tims oso..=X..stil remember last yr commendation dae.. me him my jek.alvin went to fisherman bahz.. then they smoke behind me! HMPFT!stil got alot of memories.. haiz.. good and bad..=)..i remember he promise me alot of thingys..but he always deny it..=) but i dunch care! as long as he happy.. i happy lorx.. i tink i put in alot liao.. i've seen alot liao.. and i can confirm i realli do love him..we've gone thru real lotsa..we've embarassed ourselves iN public..we've quArrEls..we've yue ding..and alot.. 1 yr 3 mths is nt short..=) i can't believe tt we stead for so long.. coz in de beginning when i jus started going out wit him.. jek ask me.. wad if he he ask for break.. i sae..no matter wad.. i noe i love him.. jus treasure de time i have wit him.. how short oso nvm.. at least i noe tt i love him and i haf memories..=)..i stil remember violent nights we haf.. when we fought cox of jiawei and stuff..lolx.. our one yr..remember? we broke off?u threw de pressie u wanted to gif away? and i ran home then went downstairs to find it again.. but u walked back and sae u left it outside my door..=) i cried after reading de letter u gave.. sadx lorx..then he everytime de face black black wan.. dun lyk my frenx..but then actualli he oso dun lyk tt wan bahz? =) wo bu zhi dao..kekex..got one time we broke off.. i wanna break de bahz.. then joyce they all come to me n ask wad happened.. then alot of them sae he change alot for u .. y break wit him..lolx.. i'm realli touch lorx..he realli change alot for me.. realli.. he quit smoking when i sae i dun lyk..he love de beach when i brought him there..he love it when i sae i love him..i love de way he tap my head and suan me..when he stroke my hair when i cry..hug me when i tel him bout thingys tt bother me.. kiss me when i ask for it..=X hahaz..lOlx..i realli do love him..=)i may nt b a very nice ger.. but to u i mux realli b a very nice ger..=x hahaz...

dear shen bing le..

haiyoz.. dear shen bing le.. sobx.. todae i jus step out of de bus going to sch.. he msg me sae he nt going to sch le.. coz he shen bing.. so xin tong wor.. then physic i cannt concentrate.. so worried.. haiz.. then after sch i went to eat liao then i rush to his hse c him.. so sad wor.. he so shack..haiz..then he tok so soft..cannt hear..no energy wor.. then he got fever oso.. haiz.. laopo c liao xin tong wor..*sobx*.. hmhmhm then tml u got oral oso.. haiz! mux rest more more and drink alot alot of water wor.. then wil fast fast hao bahz..=)wish to hear u sound normal tml..=) mux take gd care zhi dao mahz..i can onli do little bit.. i cannt always b by ur side and look after u de.. loLx.. lyk his mummy lyk tt..hahaz.. hmhmhm.. cannt sick wor.. sick means make me sad sad.. kekex..kan kuai hao qi lai!

Wednesday, July 14, 2004

public performance!

hM.. tOdaE wOke uP sO eArli wOr..*yAwN* hAhAx..suPPosE tO wake up at 8.45 de.. then my maid woke me up at 8? lolx.. then cannt slp then come down here use com..HAHAx..haven bathe yet..hahaz.. ltr meeting wp for breakfast.. at 9.30?! *yawN* so earli.. coz of him my beauty slp is affected..lolx.. ltr i bcome panda! hahAx..wao..he jus msg me sae he nt going le!?hmPfT!i wke up so earli coz of u then u tel me nt going le?! loLX..coz he got tummt ache.. haiz.. everytime wanna go out wit him last min confirm got smth happened de.. fate bahz.. hahaz..
hmhmhm.. yst publiC performance went quite ok bahz.. but then time passes so fast noe.. hahaz.. ppl sae de show quite lame lorx.. and i some sort agree wit it bahz.. hahaz..but then got one part oso quite funni arhx.. de guy wanna die de time i tink.. kekex.. eh..then band arhx.. wa piangz eh..MI we play til de pitch anyhw run..hahaz..but then de POcOhAntAs? dunno how to spell.. hahaz.. so VeRy nice! kekex.. very loud.. de impact very gd.. hahaz..hmhmhm.. then at de last part we have to put out de party popper mahz.. then wo bu zi dao jus pull de string lorx.. how i noe mis ang infront of me.. hahaz.. den she sae gu yi de. hahaz.. den scare her.. then she pull it infront of me oso.. diongz.. so childish hohx?=Xhahaz.. but then hao wan mahz.. hahaz..then so fun lorx.. hahaz.. at de last part nia.. beginning very jing zhang de.. hahaz..then saw KiaNmEi wor.. hahaz.. so happy?kekex..then meh2 wear skrit! kawAiI nEhx.. xInyI oSo wear skirt.kekex.. very short de wor.. hahaz.. but then oso nice.. wahaha~!...after everything i very tired wor.. hahaz..after tt we went back to sch lorx.. then wp come fetch me..then went home bathe then orh orh liao.. bth liao.. hahaz.. slp rnd 11+12+.. so tired! kekex...

Tuesday, July 13, 2004

so late le.. stil cannt slp.. hmhmhm.. dear stil doing his hw..*poor thing*wo mei you hw.. *lalala*=Xhahaz. hmhmhm.. todae rain wor.. then in sch so cold..*brrRrr* kekex.. erm.. todae after sch waited for dear til 4+ lorx.. hahaz..coz he got ss remedial then got eng thingy.. naughti ben dan mei you do hw lahz.. hahaz.. then gotta stay back.. then while waiting.. i pei meiting wait til chior.. hahaz..then knew a new fren todae.. hahaz.. brenda.. she's cute.. hahaz.. then meiting go liao.. left me and her lorx.. hahaz.. then we tok tok tok .. hahaz.. then she sae she cannt belief me and weiping 1 yr+?hahaz..actualli alot of ppl oso cannt belief.. i oso cannt..=X.. hahaz.. so shocking bahz.. hahaz... then dear hao liao.. i gotta go liao.. then leave brenda there alone very sad lehx.. haiyoz.. but then oso bo bian mahz.. then i ask her go ouside AVA wait for meiting then i go le.. topid.. then i step out of sch rain! haiz.. then i got wet! wth! lOlx..then go sit sit rnd fes then walk to lP makan! hahaz.. i was starving lorx.. hahaz. then while waitin dear was doing his hw then teling me some stuff lorx.. and buweeing me at de same time! hmpfT.. hE everytime torture me and scold me de! lAla! HAHAX!..then i sae he buwee me he change attitude sae whr got.. then stroke my head lyk little kid lyk tt..lolx.. sae wo jui teng ni le.. whr wil buwee u..-.-! tok tok nia..lolx.. then everytime scold me topid..haiz.. bth! lolx.. todae he sort de hao mahz.. hahaz.. then todae went lp eat.. hahaz.. he lyk pig lyk tt.. eat so much..=xhahaz.. then on de way back guess wad? we were lyk small little kids playing wit water? hahaz. and it's dirty wateR? hahaz..puddle of water.. hahaz.. i started it bahz.. i step then de water splash onto his pants.. hahaz.. then he take revenge liao lorx.. hahaz..then splash.. but then nv tio me.. at last i wanna reach home tt time.. at de carpark.. he step on one big bigg puddle then SPLASH! my skirt is al wet! dOtx! then i scream lyk hel can?lolx then he down there luffing.. hMPFT!.. luckily i wanna reach home liao.. hahaz..then he didn send me upstairs.. so sad..lolx.. mei you bao bao..*shY*.. hahaz.. den at nitex i go meet kiAnmEi pass her tic.. then went to her hse tok tok .. hahaz.. so funni.. tok so many tingys.. then she tel me thins i tel her.. same same lorx.. hahaz..then reach home bout 10 + le bahz.. hahaz..dUnNo tml dear going bugis mahz.. hahaz..=)..

Monday, July 12, 2004

mis u dear~

ltr going swimming wor.. hahaz.. cannt wait.. so long mei you swim liao.. then after tt meeting dear for dinner..yst didn c him..haiz..miss him wor..hmhmhm..stil nt very use to tis blog..sort of weird..lolx..as times go by wil gt use to it de bahz.. hahaz..hmhmhm.. tues coming liao.. going to sch at bout 10.20? hahaz.. so songz.. no need wake up so earli.. but den we reaching VCh very earli.. oso dunno wanna do wad wor.. can roam inside VCH til 7..lolx.. frm 12 to 7 can do wad inside VCH?!lolx.. oso dunno.. missin my dear wor..

Saturday, July 10, 2004

×ïãø[ñü]®Ëñ

name = kïmbËrlÿ
piercings = 5
tattoos = mEi YOu
height = eH~155?shLd b tAlLer..=)
shoe size = 7?=X *bEeG fEeT*
siblings = 2 YoUngEr sIs..

[LAST...]
movie you watched = WinDsTrUcK!! OMG~ iT'S dAmn fREaKIn nicE..
song you listened to = ocEaN sOngz? kEkEx..gU dAN bEi bAn QiU?
cd you bought = OcEaN.. hAHAx..
cd you listened to = OcEAN!~
last person that called you = mY mAmA..hAhAx..

[DO...]
you have a crush on someone = mEi YOu
you wish you could live somewhere else = YeSh!
you think about suicide = nW? i Dun wAnnA dIe sO yOung
you believe in online dating = rUbBisH
others find you attractive = mEi yOu
you want more piercings = yeSh!>.<
you like roller coasters = yESh! i wAn sIt dE wOrLd bIggEsT rOlLaR cOAstEr tHen i'Ll gO aRgH!!-.-

[HAVE YOU...]
ever cried over a boy = yUpX..
ever cried over a girl = yEsH! =D

[WHAT...]
shampoo do you use = i dUnnO wAd mIlk dE.. hAHAx..
shoes do you wear = cOnVerSe
in life = in lIfE? wAD thIngy lAi dE?

[NUMBER...]
of times I have been in love? 4 tImeS?
of times I have had my heart broken? 3 timeS..*tSk tSk tSk*
of times my name has appeared in the paper? dOtx!wHen i dIe cOnfIrm Got dE..=X hAhAx..

[DO YOU THINK YOU ARE...]
pretty = nO~
funny = at times
hot = bU kE neNg
amusing = aMusIng? As iN? hAhAx..
loveable = tO mY bOi oF cOz i m.. rItEx rTiEx? *sHy*
caring = tO mY bOi.. hAhax..
cool = lOlx.. dUn tiNk So...

[FAVOURITE...]
5 letter word = i luv u
Actor/actress = mEi yOU
Cartoon = wINnIe dE poOh!!
Cereal = vEry lOng dIdN eaT liAo wOr..
Chewing gum = grApE dE bAhx..
Color(s) = yElLow yElLoW aNd moRE yeLlOw!
Color nail polish = eH..nIcE dE dEn pUt lORx..hAhAx..
Day of the week = sUndaE! cOz cAn sLP LongEr..
Least favorite day = MoNdaE! gOt pE!
Jelly flavour = sTraWbErRy
Summer/Winter = bOtH!

[Person who last.. ]
Slept in your bed = ME!
Saw you cry = mY dEardEaR?
Made you cry = mY deArdEaR..*BeN daN mAKe mE cRy*
Yelled at you = mY pApA?

[Have you ever.. ]
Said I love you and meant it? yeSh!dEaRdeAr i LovE u!
Kept a secret from everyone? yUpX
Cried during a movie = yeS yeS! nOn sTop!=XhAHAx
Been on stage = YeS! *JIng zHaNg*
Been to New York = sO saD.. dUN hAf
To California = mEi you.. Ohs.. mIsS jEnN..
Wished you were another gender = eRm..lAst time Bahx..
What time is it now? = 9.07 pM

[This or That? ]
Apples or bananas? = bAnAnA!yElLow
Spring or Autumn? = autUmN
What are you gonna do after you finish this? = fIgUrE oUt hoW tO chAngE dE tEmplAtE? lOlx..
Last smell you sniffed? = PIZZA!lOlx..