It's never the same anymore.

Friday, January 05, 2007

it's been a torturing week for me. Having an infection at the part that you least expected is a torture! I had to worry when will the pain come again and so on makes me wanna go crazy. Being unable to go to school since school reopen is no joke. Movement to me is a NONO.

Another torture is that i can't see my boy for days. Being sick at home without being able to see my beloved makes me so reckless. He's busy with his 'shi guan' thingy which i can't say any thing if not i'll b next on the list which is named 'naggy girlfriend'. And i seriously don't want that to happen. It made me so sad when i waited for his phonecall for the whole afternoon yeterday but in the end all i get was plain disappointment. He did not call. I messaged him to tell him that i'm not at all happy. I was so sad. He called and we talked, but ended up quarreling. His tone was so fierce and it made me felt that everything is wrong. This is the second time he's talking to me like this, yes i know he's controlled alot but his tone just made me feel that everything is soon going to be impossible for both of us. My feelings was rather messed up, i hang up. He called me late in the night. very late probably 4? yea. i'm awake still. He talked to me in a nice tone but i'm very rude towards him. I know all the words i said hurt him deeply. I know his heart is broken but i insist. i'm sorry. I just couldn't control myself over such thing. I don't know why am i always making you sad by saying those hurting words.

Today, he messaged me in the afternoon reminding me to eat medicine. I'm sad after i read it. Am i suppose to be happy? No, cause why? I told him yesterday that i'm allergic to the doctor's medicine. But he forget, i'm sad. But i still listen to him and ate my medicine. In the end i've another swollen eyes. -.- Why am i that stupid? I don't know why myself. He didn't called me for the whole afternoon till i messaged him. I'm disappointed again. Very sad indeed. I'm wondering, ' i know that you're busy, but can't you at least think of me for less than a minute? messaged me and asked if i'm ok can? it's less than a mintue to at least press my no. and asked?' Sad again. I'm feeling sick and sad now. =(


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