ok.. since i've already tell him alittle i shall kind of pour out everything here.i know that what i'm going to say later on ain't nice but i'm sorry. it's just what i felt. here it goes...

i'm just pure jealous of you and her. probably it's just that i can't accept the fact that u're not fully mine. understand what i mean? it's like i know you can't let go a 5.5 years relationship so easily although you said u had. i wasn't really convinced by that statment. caused by the effort and the determination of getting her back i can see how much she meant to you. i can't comment about that and i know i can't force you to forget. it's just that i'm jealous, probably afriad.
i just simply don't like it when you tell me something. it makes me go thinking that you gave her up because you've no choice and be with me to forget her. i don't really mind if you really treat me as a substitute for you to forget her love. but what if you really treat me as one but you still can't forget her love instead you throw me aside as well? what am i to do? i'm jus purely afriad...

I'm afriad of you treating me so nicely. Treating me so good only make me dependent on you. this scares me cause what if one day u're gone and i'm all alone, what am i going to do without you? i'll get lost. it's like being in a deserted place with nobody around to help me, no signboards to indicate where i should go and no light source to show me the way.. what if... don't tell me once there it's always there. cause there's always this 50 50 possibility. nothing is fixed, everything can be changed. it's just the matter of time baby.

I'm always thinking what if one day she come back to you. what are you going to say. did you ever thought of all this question yourself? at the very start you say you totally gave her up you won't look back even if she comes back. but i doubt...

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