It's never the same anymore.

Monday, May 22, 2006

I felt guilty for making you cry, i felt guilty for making you sad. Bascially, i felt guilty for everything that i've done that led you to the lowest point.

starting my entry with me being so guilty for making a love one suffer with me. am i being too sensitive or is it that it's all true? yesterday night was a disaster, a nightmare.... it all happens when i said i felt insecure. And things started to get messy. At first i'm so agitated by all the lies that he's giving. And i'm blinded for the past one month. my words got harsh, i said all those lies can stop me from loving you at this moment. i hated people who lie to me.

I just don't understand why is there a need to lie to me about those stuff. i don't think it's a very big thing anyway but after you lie it's a big thing to me. To me a lie is a lie it doesn't matter how serious it was, it's still a lie . The purpose of lies are all the same isn't it? yup. Therefore no matter how little you weigh it, to me a lie is a lie.

Today i did not go to school. I walked out of the lift as usual, on my way to the bus stop i recieved a telephone call. 'Baby' appeared on the screen and i picked up his call. All he say was, baby i'm sorry one more chance? U turn. And he hung up. i was confused i stopped walking and looked back he was standing there looking so shag. He walked towards me asking if i could accompany him for the day and not go to school. i thought for very long and agreed. So we went to the bus stop and waited for shawn to pass him ade's and my admin card. After doing so, we went to some place to sit down and he gave me a bunch of flower. Although they're not real and not very presentable but it did make me smile for a moment and think that he's cute (: he said : "i searched the whole night for things to give you but i couldn't find. I only found this. *smile*"
But a moment of smile leads to many moments of confusion and pleading. On the way to the hospital, we kept quiet. Nothing was said. But after we reached, he led me to the garden and he started talking to me and so on. this part can't be told cause it's confidential (: After about half an hour of pleading i felt so sad, guilty and i don't know what i accepted his apology and gave him another chance. And so... It's a happy ending (:


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